Old photographs . . . goofy . . . fun . . . crazy . . . smiles . . . laughs . . . being with friends . . . the best of times . . . old crumpled up notes . . . sad . . . disappointing . . . hard times . . . tears . . . losing friends.
All of these thoughts can sum up my high school years at MJCA . . . tonight I was looking at tons of old pictures that immediately brought back several memories. Girls I was friends with, fought with, gossiped about and thought we could never be friends again . . . look at us now, we are all friends again. Teachers that taught me more things than I know what to do with; some information relative and some I’ll never use again. Teachers that could care less about curriculum but rather teaching us about life and how to live it. Peers who influenced me and my decisions for the best or worse more than you will ever know. Days I wished away . . . weeks I couldn’t wait to pass . . . I want to relive. Soccer games I wish I could have just given a little more. Younger students I wish I could have invested in their lives. More things I wish I wish I would have gotten involved in. Worrying over pointless things that in the end did not matter at all.
Regrets? I think yes. Lessons learned? I think definitely. Four and a half months is ALL I have left to make it count. This song, “Graduation” by Vitamin C really made me think after hearing it. I mean it gives the perfect picture of graduating from your good high school memories and friends to moving on with the rest of your lives. All these things that seem just like yesterday now will only fade into long lost memories. Some we will remember and be able to tell about when we are older; others, we won’t even be able to recall. The first day of school this year I remember I kept thinking, “Man! I can’t wait for this year to be over! After this I get to head to college!” But now . . . now I wish I could start back over back to day one, and I already wish I had done things differently. But I can’t focus on the past, I can’t change it. All I can do it focus on the future and how I can change things. I want to leave my mark on MJCA. I want to make sure I am remembered at MJCA for positive things. I have four months to determine how I will leave this school. It is so crazy to think we will graduate and all go our separate ways, and we probably won’t even see each other again. It is sad, but it is a chapter in our lives that is ready to end, and we are ready to start another. I am sad to leave this chapter behind but excited for a new one to start. I challenge all of you to make your mark. Determine how you will be remembered at MJCA. Don’t wish away your days you have left, rather treasure them. Because one day, I promise you will look back and wish you could have done something differently. Live without regrets.
-Faith
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faith,
ReplyDeleteyou are one of the people i will miss most after we graduate... and really.. the thought of not seeing your face everyday really does make me sad! i can't even go a weekend without missing you :( lets live the last 4 months uppp!and even if you dont end up making some huge impact on mjca (which we all know you will) just know you made a really big one on me... real talk. i know i sound like a creeper right now... but..i love you!
awww :) OH MY LANTA YOU ARE MY WOMAN! haha (the ringer)
ReplyDeleteUmmm... CHILLS! Like what... I don't even know what to say. That was so true, every bit of it. I'm gonna have to look up that song.. :)
ReplyDeleteEveryone regrets something about the past, but the key is not to dwell on it. The only thing that we can do about is to learn and not make those mistakes again. But wishing too much on the past can destroy you and ruin the future.
ReplyDeleteDang girl, well said. I try to maintain mentally that I shouldn't have any regrets and everything happens for a reason, but it gets hard sometimes. I have regrets. All we can do is look forward and make the most of the time we have left with each other. Good stuff :D
ReplyDeleteFaith, this was really inspiring. You're so right...we really do only have 4 months left together as a class, and we should do our best to make the most of everyday we have left! We'll never get a do-over. Really good job!
ReplyDeleteFaith, speak it. I am going to have to go buy a bag of chocolate and throw it at some middle schoolers and elementaries tomorrow. i need to leave my mark. a chocolatey, peanuty, nougety mark.
ReplyDelete... with marshmallows.
noa....... i dont even know what to say... thats so weird.
ReplyDeleteWow Faith, that was amazing! And I really will miss seeing all you guys everyday next year, even the ones I don't necessarily talk to all the time. Hopefully we can all make the most of the last 4 months of our senior year though!
ReplyDeleteFaith this is so so good... I have been wishing away my senior year and this helped me realize that you only have one life to live so why not live it to the fullest! ( :
ReplyDeletewow Faith I love this. It was just this morning that I was thinking how excited I was to graduate in four months and how much I can't wait! This blog really made me think, I will miss you all with my whole heart! I am so grateful our class gets along this year. Thanks for this blog!
ReplyDelete- Kelsey
Fa-ishy...
ReplyDeleteIt really is sad to look back on all of our years here at MJCA and know that it's finally coming to an end. I remember how much we all used to hate this place, but the closer graduation gets the more we seem to be clinging to it... We should all want to be remembered for something good, although the whole "Mean Girls" thing is still pretty funny to me. ha
Love,
-Jillraffe