Walking, fast. Running, running through the pangs of her past, turning her head away from the ugly truth. She is not at rest, never a moment of peace. She wakes from a sleepless night and finds a stranger looking in the mirror. Again, running away, she puts on a mask to cover the secrets, to shadow the truth. But, the mask doesn't hide everything- for her eyes still hold true. Deep, roaming, dark pools that serve as a reflection of her past, her thoughts, her darkest secrets. She doesn't run, but she walks. She waves to her peers, hugs her family, smiles at her mentors, laughs with the ones she loves, yet stares blankly at the ones she hates- the ones she truly fears- her eyes still holding true. Everyday she makes an impression, whether it be good or bad, and she waits. She doesn't turn one corner or walk in one direction without questioning every step. She is waiting for answers. Reasons for circumstances that constrict her boundaries. Explanations for the things she cannot comprehend. Resolutions for questions she cannot answer. All the while, these questions wander in her eyes. It is only when she is alone that she can finally catch her breath and take a look at who she truly is. She removes the mask, shocked at what is left. Her flaws revealed, secrets exposed, every comfort and reassurance stripped away, and she washes her face, washing it all away. The only thing that's left are her eyes, the eyes that have held the truth the whole time. The girl behind the mask is finally free. I am the one looking in the mirror, and my deep brown eyes are staring back at me.
"Save me, I'm lost. Save
me from being confused. Oh Lord, I've been waiting for
you. Please show me what I'm
looking for.."--Carolina Liar.
--Riley Hammond.
I love this, Riley! I think a lot of times we are our own worst enemy. We all really need to learn to accept ourselves the way we are.
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I think that almost everyone deals with this at one point in their life, if not through all of it. The difference is that some people know what they are doing and try to change, while the others live in a lie for a lifetime.
ReplyDelete-Ivanna
I think you hit the main point of today. We all have masks and we try to hide who we really are.
ReplyDelete-Danielle
Hey girl, this was really inspiring and it actually related to bros as well. Most of the time, these kind of stories focus on make up and literal masks. You used eyes, which everyone could relate to. Good work :D
ReplyDeleteOh snap riley good choice of song! That's my freakin JAM!! Save me, I'm lostttt!!!!
ReplyDeleteRiley, I think you did an amazing job with this. I believe that we all put on a mask at one point or another, sometimes because we don't like who we are or sometimes because we want to feel accepted by everyone around us. Good job!
ReplyDeleteThis was very good, Riley. I would say that you did a great job relating this to everyone, but everybody has already said that so I'll just leave it at that.
ReplyDeletegooood job riley :)
ReplyDeleteThis is perfect.:)
ReplyDeleteI really love this riley. This is really true, because most the time, we are our own worst enemy. Thanks for this enlightening blog.
ReplyDelete- Kelsey